Review: Saving June by Hannah Harrington

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Title: Saving June

Author: Hannah Harrington

Publisher: Mira Ink

Publication Date: 1 June 2012

Source: Review Copy

Rating: 5/5

Synopsis from Goodreads

‘If she’d waited less than two weeks, she’d be June who died in June. But I guess my sister didn’t consider that.’

Harper Scott’s older sister has always been the perfect one so when June takes her own life a week before her high school graduation, sixteen-year-old Harper is devastated. Everyone’s sorry, but no one can explain why.

When her divorcing parents decide to split her sister’s ashes into his-and-her urns, Harper takes matters into her own hands. She’ll steal the ashes and drive cross-country with her best friend, Laney, to the one place June always dreamed of going, California.

Enter Jake Tolan. He’s a boy with a bad attitude, a classic-rock obsession and nothing in common with Harper’s sister. But Jake had a connection with June, and when he insists on joining them, Harper’s just desperate enough to let him. With his alternately charming and infuriating demeanour and his belief that music can see you through anything, he might be exactly what she needs.

Except June wasn’t the only one hiding something. Jake’s keeping a secret that has the power to turn Harper’s life upside down again.

REVIEW

I cannot tell you how much I loved this book, its raw, realistic and relatable. It sweeps you right along for the ride with the characters. The brilliant use of music and the inclusion of the play-lists at the back of the book gave that extra special feeling to the narrative. The music choices are a work of genius when listened to in context to the story.

Harper has grown up in her sister June's shadow, always comparing herself negatively to June. Although as circumstances have shown June was far from happy, she spent her life living it for other people rather than doing the things she really wanted to. Until she reaches the point that she is so overwhelmed by the burden of other peoples wishes and her own unfulfilled life that she commits suicide.  Harper is the unfortunate person to find her.

The portrayal of grief within the narrative is poignant and emotional combined with the very real sense of guilt and blame we put on ourselves following any tragedy. I felt for Harper on a personal level, being the youngest of 3 children with a large age gap I grew up in the huge shadow of my siblings. Constantly being compared to them and not in a favorable way. So I understood how Harper felt, my heart went out to her, I could relate to her rebellious nature and wanting to be the polar opposite of June in an attempt to stop being compared to her. Harper's inner strength really shines through, she remains true to who she is and develops a level of self-awareness a lot of people never achieve in a lifetime.

As little details about June come to light, Harper realizes that no-one knew the 'real' June probably not even June herself. As a final act of love and a way of setting June free, Harper embarks on a journey physically and metaphorically to release June, fulfilling one of June's wishes to go to California.

The confinement of the road trip provides the ideal base for introspection, Harper comes to recognize the things that drive her, what motivates her and ultimately her own hopes and dreams. A wonderful journey of self discovery accompanied by powerful imagery and a fabulous soundtrack. Powerful writing aided the connection I felt with Harper, I literally felt what she was going through.

It isn't just Harper that finds herself on this trip. Her companions Laney and Jake learn a lot about themselves too. Laney, as an only child has a different kind of confidence to Harper, she is a wonderful, loyal and understanding friend. Laney has a relaxed relationship with her parents, she is from a privileged background and doesn't have many repercussions to her actions. Yet, she lacks emotional support and love, which she craves, causing her to try to find it in a series of casual flings. However, this has its own consequences; this road-trip has the benefit of introducing Laney to different perspectives to life and  the people she encounters help steer her onto a much better path. Opening her horizons if you will (yes pun intended)

Moving onto Jake, I love love love Jake. His music knowledge and eclectic taste swept me off my feet. The way in which music means something personal to him is something I completely relate to. Music can be cathartic, uplifting, an emotional trigger, it can be everything. 

I loved the relationship between all the characters, the interactions and the way in which their personalities sparked the others. I really liked how June helped Jake by showing him that he didn't have to be defined by his background and the way to really make a difference is not to conform to other peoples (lack) of expectation, rather to fulfill your own expectations rather than other peoples an especially emotional lesson as it is clear that this is something June was unable to do for herself. 

With the number of times I have used the word love in this review you can probably tell I LOVED this book. I believe reading is utterly subjective and there were aspects in this book I could personally relate to the way in which I relate to music, my relating it to personal experience. I'm sticking with my tagline for this book - Raw, Realistic and Relatable. 

Guest Review: Before I Die by Jenny Downham

Title: Before I Die

Author: Jenny Downham

Publisher: David Fickling Books

Publication Date: 29 April 2010

Synopsis from Goodreads

Tessa has just months to live. Fighting back against hospital visits, endless tests, drugs with excruciating side-effects, Tessa compiles a list. It’s her To Do Before I Die list. And number one is Sex. Released from the constraints of ‘normal’ life, Tessa tastes new experiences to make her feel alive while her failing body struggles to keep up. Tessa’s feelings, her relationships with her father and brother, her estranged mother, her best friend, and her new boyfriend, all are painfully crystallised in the precious weeks before Tessa’s time finally runs out.

Tessa has cancer, diagnosed with only a few months to live. Instead of giving up she creates a list of things she wants to do before she dies. Before I Die follows Tessa through her impossible list, sharing the anger, hurt, happiness and most importantly love that she encounters on her journey.

Tessa is strong and fearless, with such a terrible disease she still manages to be happy. She powers through the bad times, brave and outrageous I loved how she was able to make the best of the situation she found herself in. Through the story the reader gets to encounter the highs and lows of Tessa's life. Showing the world through her eyes as she strives to complete her list. Crazy things like breaking the law, taking drugs in an attempt to experience everything, living life to the full with her best friend Zoe helping her along.

My favorite part was when Tessa first sees Adam, going over to his garden next door. It was like a new beginning for Tessa, from this moment Tessa decides to start doing things, she shares a rare moment of peace in her chaotic world. There was one part that I didn't like, focusing on the relationship between Tessa and Zoe. I thought Zoe was thoughtless and selfish not to make sure Tessa was OK following the incident in the river.

I would really like to have seen Tessa's name in the wardrobe when she went to the seaside. I think this would have given her strength and hope. As well as the comfort of knowing she wouldn't be forgotten after her death.

This book was so emotional, it made me appreciate the life I have and I will be highly recommending it.

Review: Where She Went by Gayle Forman

Title: Where She Went
Series: If I Stay
Author: Gayle Forman
Publisher: Doubleday Children's
Publication Date: 28 April 2011







Synopsis: From GoodReads
It's been three years since the devastating accident ... three years since Mia walked out of Adam's life forever.
Now living on opposite coasts, Mia is Julliard's rising star and Adam is LA tabloid fodder, thanks to his new rock star status and celebrity girlfriend. When Adam gets stuck in New York by himself, chance brings the couple together again, for one last night. As they explore the city that has become Mia's home, Adam and Mia revisit the past and open their hearts to the future - and each other.

Review: You really must read If I Stay first - this may contain spoilers:

I normally wait to publish a review closer to the publication date if I am lucky enough to receive a review copy. However, on this occasion I just have to write about it straight away. It is such a fantastic book, I couldn't put it down. I read it in one sitting late, late into the night with tears streaming down my face (joy and sadness). I kept promising myself I would go to sleep after one more chapter, then after the next, then the next (you get the picture) until 2:30 came and I finished the book with school the next morning (4 hours sleep does not a happy Emma make).

Although I enjoyed If I Stay I have to say that I did not really connect with Mia on a personal level, her personality and upbringing just felt so alien to me. As you can see from the synopsis this book is written in first person narrative from Adams perspective. Now you may think that if I couldn't gel with my how on earth am I going to gel with Adam (him being a boy and all) I wasn't expecting to either but gel I did. Everything he felt I felt right alongside him, his anguish at losing Mia, his disillusionment at the direction his life and music has taken, right down to his frustrated outbursts with snooping reporters and his need to be physically close to another person.

The writing just flowed off the page, musical/lyrical in its own right. Song lyrics from Adam's band appear at the top of each chapter adding to the emotions evoked. The music references were genius (most of the bands I know and love, others I will be hunting out as I am sure I will love them)  and at the end it really felt as if Adam had reconnected with who he was/wanted to be. Being a great believer in soul-mates it was as if Mia and Adam needed to be together in order to be whole.

Full sensory immersion was achieved due to the tactile descriptions and sensations. My friend and awesome author Keris Stainton came to mind a lot when reading this with the tour of NYC as Keris is obsessed with NY and her new book is also set there. Gayle Forman's descriptions and little details adding to the whole picture really made it feel as if I was there alongside Mia and Adam. I will never think of the statue of liberty the same way [ : D ]

I hate to sound cliched but this is one book that I think is a MUST read - so if you only buy one book this year, make sure it is this one.

Celebrating Wales: Review: Big Woo (My Not So Secret Teenage Blog) by Susie Day

Title: Big Woo (My Not So Secret Teenage Blog)
Author: Susie Day
Publisher: Marion Lloyd Books
Publication Date: 7 April 2008

Source: Library





Synopsis: From Amazon
Ta-da! My blog of lolarious brilliance has escaped from the internets. Into a book! BIG WOO! Omg behold my interestingness. But don't read it, tiny children. It is full of rudey bits and lameassery. AND SHOUTING IN CAPSLOCK which is bad for you, obvs.

Review:
If you need to learn text speak to understand your teenager nothing does it better than this book, providing an insight into the female teenage mind and all that entails while allowing the reader a good giggle.

Written in first person narrative from Seraphina perspective but in the visually dynamic format of blog posts even incorporating the comments section. Seraphina is coming to terms with the break-up of her parents, low self confidence and body image. She is completely easy to relate to even though it has been quite some time since I was a teen myself.

Sensitive issues are touched upon within the narrative such as eating disorders/divorce/new relationships/teenage sexuality/cyber bullying all impacting today's teenage life. Shown from Seraphina's view point making her sometimes funny, sometimes naive/immature/self-absorbed but all with a sense of uniqueness and inner strength. New boundaries and relationships have to be forged following her pattens split which are sometimes painful to witness,  I found myself cringing at the same time as sympathising. Having been a teenage and now a Mother it is easy to see both sides to the relationship, along with the mistakes made and blame shared.

I loved the ending showing that when the 'chips are down' family really do pull together even if it is only fictional.

A wonderful humourous coming of age/journey of self discovery. If you haven't read it yet - you really should.

Reviewed as part of Celebrating Wales - Susie is completely awesome and from Penarth [ : D ]

Follow Susie on Twitter  @mssusieday

Susie's website - the brilliantly named - Everyday should be a Susie Day

Review: Delirium by Lauren Oliver

Title: Delirium
Series: Delirium
Author: Lauren Oliver
Publisher: Hodder and Stoughton
Publication Date: 3 Feb 2011

Source: UK Book Tours




Synopsis: From GoodReads
Before scientists found the cure, people thought love was a good thing. They didn’t understand that once love -the deliria- blooms in your blood, there is no escaping its hold. Things are different now. Scientists are able to eradicate love, and the governments demands that all citizens receive the cure upon turning eighteen. Lena Holoway has always looked forward to the day when she’ll be cured. A life without love is a life without pain: safe, measured, predictable, and happy.

But with ninety-five days left until her treatment, Lena does the unthinkable: She falls in love.

Review:
I would first like to say that the idea of looking at love as a disease is ingenious and completely identifiable. Although love can sometimes be painful would a person really want to go through brain surgery in order not to be able to love. It really makes you think of how that would feel and this hypothesis is intricately woven into the narrative; providing an internal debate on the positives and negatives of love.

Written in first person narrative from Lena's perspective. Lena has lived under the shadow of having a Mother who was outcast for her unending capacity to love. Her Mother was truly wonderful but not seen as such in a society that classes love as a disease similar to the bubonic plague. Lena is afraid to feel, afraid to consider any other option until she meets Alex *swoon*. Lena's best friend, Hanna, provided a stark contrast to Lena in every way - looks/social standing/attitude - yet there is something about there co-dependent relationship that goes far beyond the surface. For me I think Lena and Hanna identified something in each other subconsciously, elements that come to the for as the story progresses.

The use of Mary Magdalene with Lena's name was particularly brilliant, the biblical link was well researched and added to the argument in favour of the cure.

I have to say that I didn't particularly like Lena, I found her self absorbed, judgemental and opportunistic. I had the same problem with Before I Fall but the protagonists path of self discovery redeemed herself in my eyes by the end of the book, I am hoping that Lena does the same in future books.

The similarities portrayed between the dystopian society and that in Matched developed the realism within my imagination. A society that controls music/books/movies, I do not think I would survive. My love of conspiracy theories was fueled by the portrayal of the divide between rich and poor. Government officials decide your place in society, who decides their place or is it a birthright like royalty. There are no restrictions placed on Government officials, they have every convenience and unlimited energy supplies whereas everyone else's is restricted. Unjust and corrupt, I was virtually climbing on my soapbox as I was reading.

The cure itself is completely horrific, akin to a lobotomy, as a reader I was left wondering who on earth would have discovered the way to remove a persons ability to love in the first place. Not only does the cure stop you from falling in love; it stops you loving at all, you cant even love your own children. Yet the ability to hate/be aggressive is left untouched. Personally I kept thinking why not remove the hate out of people rather than the love, wouldn't the world be a better place without hate and with love (stupid scientist). Aggression seems to be exaggerated without the capacity to love depicted vividly with the raids and the sadistic pleasure the actual raiders seem to take in hurting people and destroying things. I was almost sick when reading a particular action of the raiders (no spoilers). Imagine a world without compassion or sympathy; unfortunately it is all too easy to picture.

The writing style is wonderfully descriptive, encompassing beautiful use of similes. The description of feelings was astute and really got to the 'heart' of the matter. The merging of science and religion within the narrative along with the quotes used at the top of chapter headings added depth, dimension and impact to the basic storyline while providing additional insight into the characters and plot development.

I am not going to gush about this book as I know a lot of other people have, the reason behind this is that at the end of it I felt as if I had my heart ripped out then trampled on.

A haunting and emotional read, believe me it will stay with you for a long time.

Review: The Mockingbirds by Daisy Whitney

Title: The Mockingbirds
Author: Daisy Whitney
Publisher: Little Brown Young Readers
Publication Date: 2 Dec 2010

Source: UK Book Tours





Synopsis: From Amazon
Some schools have honour codes.

Others have handbooks.
Themis Academy has the Mockingbirds.
Themis Academy is a quiet boarding school where the students are exceptional, the faculty trust that everyone does the right thing, and the administration sees only what it wants to see - perfection.
So when Alex spends a drunken-night with a male student and awakes to evidence of a sexual encounter she can't remember, she doesn't know where to turn for help. As she slowly comes to terms with the fact that she was date raped, she enlists the help of the Mockingbirds - a secret society of her peers whose mission is to right the wrongs that the faculty and administration don't even know exist.
In standing up to her attacker, Alex discovers a strength she never knew she had and begins to understand that if you love something or someone - especially yourself - it's worth fighting for.

Review:
From the information about the author this book has been written on personal experience making it all the more powerful, emotional and compelling. I did find it quite upsetting as I kept picturing my daughters at that age being put in the same situation, I am sure I would commit a very serious crime if that occurred.


Written in 1st person narrative from Alex’s perspective. A gifted musician she has been a model student and a chaste girlfriend, saving herself for the right time. The emotions evoked from the very start are very powerful; devastating/heart-breaking are the words that come to mind giving a sense of loss and an overwhelming sadness.

The lack of remorse on the behalf of Carter (the egotistical male chauvinistic pig) was a brutal and striking contrast to the emotions Alex has to confront following the ‘incident’. The narrative shows the drastic results of excess alcohol consumption, leading to impaired mental and discussion making capabilities which can so easily be manipulated by unscrupulous people. The whole idea of Carter taking advantage of Alex was sickening. It was surprising and rather alarming at the depiction of so many girls finding themselves in similar circumstances.

The story portrays the way in which girls are very quick to blame themselves for things that happen. It made me wonder if this behavior is indoctrinated, or are we really the weaker sex. The flashbacks to the night of the ‘incident’ are written in italics adding focus and impact to the description.

The writing style flows beautifully with a strong, powerful vocalization of the reactions of all parties to the ‘incident’. The phrase ‘bad things happen to good people’ kept running through my mind. Waves of emotions poured from the pages; powerfully Alex’s feeling of being dirty and trying to wash it away on the outside while wishing you could do the same on the inside.

Alex was lucky enough to have wonderfully supportive friends and sister, making Alex luckier than a lot of people.

Although I adored Martin as the love interest (minus the owl dissection) I did have my concerns with the romance woven into the story. Martin is kind, gentle, caring, considerate and HOT. However, for me it was too soon for Alex to be starting a relationship although you can see that they are meant to be together. I am see-sawing about this aspect.

Through the progression of the story Alex becomes an icon/heroine for women’s rights at her school. I liked how The Mockingbirds trial was undertaken; if only the guilty could be as easily tripped up in real life.

For me the ending was fantastic, opening up a whole new beginning for Alex. I am a big believer in ‘pay it forward’ it must be the optimist in me. It also shows that although bad things do happen this should not be the only thing to define us; there is more to life than that if we take the time to look for it.

Part of the YA Contemps challenge

Review: Ballad by Maggie Stiefvater

Title: Ballad
Series: Books of Faerie
Author: Maggie Stiefvater
Publisher: Flux (not yet published in the UK)
Publication: 1 Nov 2009

Source: Borrowed from Lyndsey at Heaven, Hell and Purgatory




Synopsis: From Amazon
In this mesmerizing sequel to "Lament", music prodigy James Morgan has joined his best friend, Deirdre, at a private conservatory for musicians. James' almost unearthly gift for music has attracted the dangerous attentions of Nuala, a soul-snatching faerie muse who fosters and feeds on the creative energies of exceptional humans until they die. Composing beautiful music together leads James and Nuala down an unexpected road of mutual admiration ...and love. Haunted by a vision of raging fire and death, James realizes that Deirdre and Nuala are being hunted by the Fey and plunges into a soulscorching battle with the Queen of the Fey to save their lives.

Review:
In the sequel to Lament the first person narrative has been taken over by James in place of Dierdre (Dee). It was really interesting to see James' personality develop, enabling additional understanding of his actions/emotions. His wonderfully snarky witticisms captured my heart.We catch up with them a few months after the explosive finale to Lament now enrolled into a private school for the musically gifted.

We are introduced to a whole array of new characters both human and Fey, expanding the plot and adding dimension to the relationship interactions already established. The musical references virtually flowed off the pages. Alternating chapters between James and Nuala provided both sides of the story; showing how easy interactions are misinterpreted.



All the characters were three dimensional, James development in particular was astounding. The 'support' cast of characters were a pleasant surprise in their use within the narrative. Yet I could not reconcile Dee's transformation from Lament into what I could only visualise as a 'wet lettuce', where had all her 'powers' gone and why wasn't she using them.

The plot developed seamlessly from Lament, making it necessary to have read the book to fully understand the nuances of the storyline.

I adore Maggie's writing style and descriptions, I devour them as quickly as possible and feel as if I have generally been hit by a tidal wave of emotion by the end of the book. I can completely immerse myself in the worlds she creates, sometimes to my detriment when I am sobbing in the early hours of the morning.

I do have one complaint about this book.......there are still unanswered questions I have and I need another book to reconcile them. *BEGS/PLEADS/GROVELS/BRIBES*

MG Monday: Review: Beautiful Dead: Phoenix by Eden Maguire

Title: Phoenix
Series: Beautiful Dead
Author: Eden Maguire
Publisher: Hodder Children's Books
Publication Date: 7 Oct 2010

Source: Amazon




Synopsis: From Amazon
Darina is in denial. Even after all she’s been through, the Beautiful Dead can’t be real. They must be a figment of her grief-stricken imagination. But visions of Phoenix and Hunter prove otherwise and soon she’s drawn back to Foxton, to the barn, to Phoenix - where they have, what may just be, their final reunion.
It’s the moment they’ve been dreading - time to solve Phoenix’s mystery. Everything has been building to this but Darina knows that revealing the true circumstances of Phoenix’s death will lead to their final parting. With this impossible mixture of emotions, Darina begins to unscramble the facts, but she’s up against mounting obstacles: the distraction of Hunter’s personal mystery, Phoenix’s returning father, threats of gang violence and conspiracies to blur and block the truth.
With time pressure mounting and the risk of Phoenix being sent back into unending limbo, Darina puts herself in danger, and so the mystery of the Beautiful Dead builds into a heart-breaking climax ...

Review:
I have to say I dropped everything else to read this last installment of The Beautiful Dead. I started it with some trepidation knowing this would be the last time I would read about Hunter, Phoenix and Darina. The narrative was tension filled from the very beginning. I had to pace myself in order to fully appreciate the book and prolong having to part with Phoenix.

So much more of the back story to Darina and Phoenix is revealed in this book, giving resolution to an number of plot threads. Contrasting descriptions of events from various characters mixed in with conflicting personalities all add up to a melting pot through which Darina has to sift in order to gain the truth surrounding Phoenix's death. With only 10 days in which to settle the problem how is Darina going to cope? The narrative conveyed the feeling that time seems to speed up when you have a deadline unnervingly accurately.

It came as a surprise that Darina and Phoenix had only been in a relationship for just over 2 months before his death. Such a short time for such intense emotions. I started to wonder just how well they knew each other. Flashbacks of their relationship added insight and understanding to the plot.

The characterisations were expanded more than the previous books, really showing all sides of the main characters personalities. Darina showed amazing strength of character via which she was able to gain some more control over her life without Phoenix.

I completely adored how dysfunctional the Rohr's were; the introduction of Phoenix's father returning to the family after he had abandoned them really rounded that side of the plot off.

The sub-plot regarding Darina's connection to Hunter is also given a skillful culmination. I really liked how Hunter's personality and interactions softened with each book allowing him to also find peace after so many years in what can only be described as purgatory.

All of the suspicions held from the previous books all culminate to a satisfactory conclusion in this book. However, I have to say that I did guess the plot and could really see that this had to be the last book when Darina had to travel back to the scene of the death as she has in previous books. Nonetheless this knowledge did not stop me crying like a big baby when I finally finished reading it.

On the whole a great series suitable for the Middle Grade age range and perfect for a light, quick read.

Guest Post: Bullying a Personal Perspective by Tammy from A Book Fairys Haven

Voiceless and Silent

It's a hot, humid and uncomfortably sticky night here in Cape Town. Rather appropriate weather considering the subject I'm writing about is in essence a sticky and uncomfortable subject all on its own.

When I first heard that the lovely Emma from Asamum was going to be hosting the Anti-bullying week campaign on her blog, my first thought was that I needed to write a post.

I hesitated about doing a review because I realised that while I've read a few books which cast the stereotypical mean girl in good number of novels, I haven't actively read books that have specifically dealt with this rather painful topic.

When Emma made a suggestion about doing a post from a personal perspective, I was suddenly transported back to my middle grade years where I served as the resident magnet for bullies. I'm not quite sure what it was about me, but somehow, what was supposed to be wonderful years during my junior years, became years that, to this day, I simply prefer blocking out of my system.

I also realised that the reason I don't tackle too many books on this subject is because out of those books that I have read, every harsh word, every cruel sneer and every taunt I've had to endure, hits far too close to home for comfort. It's hard reading about the subject when the voices of the past still echo through one's very soul.

I see and experience it in the voices of these kids in each of the books that I have attempted to read in the past and have found myself drowning in those feelings of desperate helplessness all over again.

My story isn't a unique one and I'm pretty sure that there are many who have stories that are far worse than mine, but I thought I'd put my voice out there and tell everyone who has gone through this or is currently going through bullying in any form whatsoever, that you don't have to continue living in silence.

I'm also telling you this so that you don't make the same mistakes like I did when I decided it would be better to keep quiet and allow the voices of the bullies to snuff out whatever light I had within me.

When I was young, I was the fat, awkward kid who no one wanted to be friends with. Right from the start, I was constantly teased and tormented by others around me. I never knew what it was that I had done to make them choose me to be their target, but all I remember is how desperately I wanted them to like me and be my friend.

Naturally, because I was this young and didn't understand that a bully won't stop being a bully even if you're nice to them, I set out to do everything I could to get them to like me. Much to my shame, I only ended up compromising my integrity and throwing away my dignity in the process.

I started making up lies about fabulous things that I didn't own and made promises to those who bullied me just so that I could make them like me.

I gave away my lunch goodies and for the sake of fitting in, pretended to like everything that they did all because I so desperately wanted to make it stop and to make them become friends with me. I brought wonderful things from home and gave it to the bullies because all I wanted to fit in.

I was tired of being the awkward, ugly kid. I was even more tired of feeling even uglier than I already did when I was not being surrounded by them.

I know.

Pathetic right?

I suspect most victims of bullies try to get the bullies to like them in one form or another - we have this sense that we need their approval to exist in the world. In the process, we give away so much of ourselves that inadvertently, we don't just let them break us down, but we allow them to kill that inner light.

And essentially, that's what I did.

I let them snuff out my light without a thought.

What made things worse is that for a 11 year old kid, I had enormous breasts. I was an early developer - and of course, being already overweight, the kids around me didn't need a second invitation to add that to the list of their already mocking and jeering taunts.

I still cringe when I think about it.

Trust me when I say that no 11-year old girl wants to be labelled anything along the lines of watermelons and milk jugs.

Every. Single. Day.

And of course, being the bullies they were, once they latched onto the one thing I hated most about myself, they carried down that path and went on to find other things about me that they could torment me about.

My hair was pulled, I was called ugly, was pushed around at times and was relegated to being the person who people only went to because they wanted something.

Yet, I kept quiet about it. Which I can honestly tell you was the worst mistake I could have possibly made. At that point, I was so systematically torn down, that I believed that I deserved to be treated that way. My spirit was broken, and I couldn't do anything about it until I eventually escaped and moved onto high school.

I realised, when I gained more understanding, that by remaining voiceless, I let those bullies win. I may have learnt all this by hindsight, but you don't have to. If you're being bullied, it's time you opened your mouth to SPEAK LOUDLY.

Courage is having the ability to do something even in the midst of your fear - and by taking that one step and just talking, you've just taken your first step to winning that battle.

My experience with being bullied has taught me that it's not about what people do to you physically, but what they do to your spirit.

I had to endure years of systematic taunts that changed me for the worse. It took a good number of years, a breast reduction and a newly formed friendship with a friend who would only borrowed to me for a short time in order for me to grow into a new skin.

Don't let what I allowed to happen to me, to happen to you too. Speak up and speak loudly against it and if ever you see someone being bullied, don't just stand by and watch, help that person to find his/her voice again.

On a last note, I've decided that I'm going to tackle Some Girls Are. I've put off reading that one for a long time, but I think that it's time to overcome those voices of the past, don't you?

I would just like to take this opportunity to thank Tammy for sharing something so personal with us. I am sure a lot of people will be able to relate to it.
I sincerely hope that this campaign will help combat the increasing levels of bullying.

Review: Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson

Title: Speak
Author: Laurie Halse Anderson
Publisher: Hodder Childrens Books
Publication Date: 20 Mar 2008

Source: Own





Synopsis: From Amazon
From her first moment at Merryweather High, Melinda Sordino knows she's an outcast. She busted an end-of-summer party by calling the cops - a major infraction in high-school society - so her old friends won't talk to her, and people she doesn't know glare at her. No one knows why she called the police, and she can't get out the words to explain. So she retreats into her head, where the lies and hypocrisies of high school stand in stark relief to her own silence. But it's not so comfortable in her head, either - there's something banging around in there that she doesn't want to think about. But, try as she might, it just won't go away...

Review:
Phew, this was a really hard read for me. So emotional on a multitude of levels, taking into account the subject matter I found this particular scenario totally scary as I have 3 daughters and the oldest is only a few years younger than Melinda in this book.

Written in first person narrative from Melinda's point of view. The reader is dropped into the middle of something but is not made aware of exactly what has happened until later in the story. From the beginning we establish that Melinda is isolated due to an event that has occurred within the last few months.

I have to say I did not find Melinda particularly like-able at the beginning, before the story unfolded, due to her complete lack of enthusiasm for anything, I found her hard to relate to, which I guess is part of the point. The events leading up to this point and her current emotional state are revealed slowly..

The omnipresent cliques are portrayed in unnerving accuracy. These stereotypes dominate events throughout life not just in school. We are shown through the narrative that people will always believe what they want to, not necessarily the truth. There are always two sides to a story although it is rarely acknowledged. People always side with the popular clique and don't bother asking questions that would upset the status quo.

Plot teasers are placed throughout the narrative making the reader imagine the worst case scenario. I found the reference to book banning totally ironic in light of recent events.

The imagery was very powerful making the tension palpable from between the lines. The narrative contained terrific use of metaphor to convey the isolation and desolation that Melinda felt.

I was left speechless at the relationship that Melinda had with her parents. I just could not relate to that at all. Leaving her to fend for herself most of the time, so caught up in their own lives/work to fully understand their own child. This part was very difficult for me and made me self-analyze my relationship with my children. I could not understand how they did not know something was the matter and deal with it. Especially when it came to the falling grades and lack of enthusiasm, I would like to think I would pick up that there was a deeper problem if it was one of my children. It made me feel as if they did not really care for her at all.

When Melinda eventually admits the true problem, she is shunned at first. Adding to her feeling of anguish. It is only following another frightening event that the truth is revealed; lifting the burden from Melinda. I would have liked to have seen how the truth was dealt with; the reactions of her family and friends etc.

The message behind this story is quite simple: SPEAK out. If nothing is ever said about being bullying and worse then how are we as a population supposed to stop it. You have to think, would you want other people to suffer the same as you have. SPEAK!!!!!!

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Review: Absolution by Jennifer Laurens

Title: Absolution
Author: Jennifer Laurens
Series: Heavenly
Publisher: Grove Creek
Publication Date: 11 October 2010

Huge thanks to Jennifer for sending me a copy. I completely adore this series.




Synopsis: From GoodReads
Zoe’s secret is out. And the powers of Hell are ravenous to claim her soul. Her brother, Luke, knows her secret: that she sees both good and evil spirits. Her boyfriend knows. At least Matthias is her guardian angel again. But now Hell’s most ruthless leader will stop at nothing to have her soul.

Albert, Matthias’ father, is relentless in his hunger for Zoe. He wants to destroy Matthias and will use Zoe to do so.
The battle between Heaven and Hell tests everything Zoe has. As she witnesses everyone important in her life suffering, she’s brought to the ultimate choice: will she sacrifice her soul to save the ones she loves?

Review:
I honestly don't know where to start with this one. For some reason I always find it really difficult to write reviews for Jennifer's Heavenly series. It made me think as to why I have such trouble expressing my opinion about these books. If you have read my reviews of Heavenly and Penitence, you will see that this series has touched me on a very personal level and I think that is the reason I stumble when I am writing the reviews. it makes me feel like I am exposing my 'soul' so to speak. I can relate to most of the characters in one way or another:

Mrs Dodd (Zoe's Mother): her internal struggle about putting her autistic daughter first and the effect it has on the other children. If you remember my oldest child is dyspraxic and she tends to be the one that gets the main focus of attention, which does make me worry about the emotional health of the other two girls. It is emotionally and physically draining at times. Adding to the strain on other relationships.

Zoe: following her epiphany in Heavenly, Zoe manages to alter the course of her life for the better. Gain inner strength, faith and contentment most of us strive our whole lives to achieve.  Her ability to find forgiveness and emotional restraint against all negative emotions is enviable.

Luke: (Zoe's Brother) tries to escape from the reality of his life by the use of drugs. Again I can relate, not with the drugs but in our family case alcohol is the poison of choice. I have witnessed the struggle and daily temptation that addiction can bring. Seeing Luke overcome his addiction with the strength that Zoe's belief in him provides.

Mr Dodd (Zoe's father) the strain both emotionally, physically and financially all take its toll. The way in which the family bonds are shown as a united entity is inspiring.

Absolution starts at the exact point that Penitence ended plunging the reader into the action from the start. This is a series that you have to read in order to fully appreciate the storyline. Although there is brilliant recapping of pivotal plot points skilfully interwoven into the current plot.

The darker side of life is shown in terrifying vividness with the ghastly black evil spirits so easy to conjure within the imagination and truly frightening. It is easy to picture them at times of intense negative emotions. Zoe's ability to control her emotions and negate negativity is truly awe inspiring. Something that is not easy to do yet is something that more of us should try to achieve (especially me).

The way in which friendship, family and love are portrayed, and their ability to enhance our lives for the better is beautiful. Daily life is not easy, and it is hard to remember to count the blessings we have no matter how small. This series always makes me do that, stand back and be grateful for the little things. No matter how tough things get, you have to have faith. As I have continually stated I am not overtly religious but the whole ethos of having faith in something and positive thinking while avoiding negativity is something I can appreciate.

The characters development throughout the narrative was wonderful, all of them progressed and developed as separate individuals yet remained as a core unit. Even Abria's development was a pleasure to witness. Most surprisingly for me was the way I felt about Weston through this book. Previously I resented him being with Zoe as I felt he was coming between her and Matthias.  However, through his development within this story I actually found myself appreciating the relationship he has with Zoe, not perfect being human and all, he really does strife to be like Zoe with his positivity and avoiding the negative.

As much as I wanted to make Mathias human or Zoe an angel so that they could be together. I have to say the ending was PERFECT just ab-sol-utely perfect. I cried my eyes out with big gulping sobs, so even J noticed. I couldn't speak for ages after closing the last page for fear of bursting into yet more tears but it was still PERFECT.

To round off I just want to say that for me this is a comfort read. It gives me hope like a ray of sunshine in my life. It came into my life at a crucial point and for that I will be eternally grateful to Jennifer. If you know me then you will realise I tend to say that 'reading is subjective' quite a lot, in fact I am going to make it my catchphrase [: D] That is how I view the Heavenly series for me they are completely personal, I relate to them from my own experiences, they have helped me come to terms with some things and for that I adore them and Jennifer for writing them and sharing them with me.

Review: Matched by Ally Condie

Title: Matched
Series: ? although it is a trilogy (thank goodness)
Author: Ally Condie
Publisher: Puffin
Publication Date: 2nd December 2010

Thank you so much to UK Book Tours for the chance to read it



Synopsis: From Amazon
On her seventeenth birthday, Cassia meets her Match. Society dictates he is her perfect partner for life. Except he’s not. In Cassia’s society, Officials decide who people love. How many children they have. Where they work. When they die. But, as Cassia finds herself falling in love with another boy, she is determined to make some choices of her own. And that’s when her whole world begins to unravel....

Review:
Wow, just wow. This one really lingers in your memory long after you turn that last page. That's all I can say is thank goodness this is a trilogy as I have so many unanswered questions and feel as if I am personally invested in the futures of the main characters that I just don't want to let them go.

Shades of George Orwell's Nineteen Eighty-Four. A society that controls every aspect of daily life. Watching all aspects of 'normal' human behaviour. Monitoring everything from interactions to dreams. Controlling what is grown, what is eaten and how much is eaten; what jobs people do and even who we are allowed to love. All this was just so frighteningly easy to picture in the imagination, even relate to on some fundamental level.

People's behaviour and actions are predicted; what would happen if we were given a choice. The power the 'officials' possess makes them think that they are 'gods' playing with peoples lives as if it were some kind of sadistic experiment. The monotony of 'the society' and the drabness of their lives probably provides the reasoning behind this behaviour. As I read my mind kept questioning the entire foundation of 'the society', like a domino effect one question lead to another;  how did it start, why did it start, who controls it, I could go on.

I found myself rebelling mentally against the idea of living in a world where nothing is created. There are only 100 poems/books/paintings that have been chosen for the population by an appointed panel. I just could not live like that. I wondered if this lifestyle would turn people into automatons, not really living but just going through the motions until the 'society' sanctioned euthanasia at 80. It would be like living in an ant colony only there to serve and provide a reproductive service in order to maintain 'the society'. The inspired use of Dylan Thomas's Do Not Go Gentle into that Good Night added impact to the imagery; being welsh Dylan Thomas is one of my favourite poets. Plus the use of a Harry Potter reference for sarcastic purposes made me feel that Ally Condie is a kindred spirit. The tone is at times delightfully sarcastic which I totally adore.

All the characters are tremendously well rounded; their interactions and behaviour are revealed slowly throughout the narrative. The main point, I felt, was that we may not know the people close to us as well as we think we do.

The three main protagonist work beautifully together.
Cassia: initially a drone desperate to be a model citizen. Slowly realises appearances aren't always what they seem mainly due to her Grandfather's influence. Her personality and creativity goes from strength to strength as the plot develops.
Ky: wow my heart just ached for him. Such a wonderful character to imagine. Always the outsider on the fringes watching and learning as he is in turn being watched. Hiding who he really is in order to blend in. The weight of so many secrets weighs him down.
Xander: another multi-dimensional character. it seemed as if he was too different people, one in public and one in private. He too has his secrets.
This was one very difficult love triangle in which to pick a side. Normally I have no trouble deciding which male protagonist I would pick but this one left me baffled, both Ky and Xander are wonderful. I really didn't want to see anyone get hurt.

The whole idea of being Matched by a set of criteria and then the developing love triangle really brought to mind the whole question of how do we fall in love. If matching wasn't involved who would they chose to fall in love with.

A truly fantastic book with a fresh dystopian theme. I am just so happy that this is a trilogy but obviously not at all happy that I have to wait for the next installment. I just hope that at least some of my questions get answered.

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Review: A Bad Boy can be Good for a Girl by Tanya Lee Stone

Synopsis: From Amazon

Josie, Nicolette and Aviva are three very different girls who all meet the same bad boy with an irresistible knack for getting into their blood and under their skin. Each is sure that she can keep a cool head about him, but how much are they really in control? A critical and word-of-mouth success in the US, this is a compulsive read that opens up the questions about love and sex that every girl needs to know.



Review:
For anyone that isn't aware this is a verse novel. I really enjoy verse novels as the writing has to convey a myriad of meaning in a short space. Giving the narrative a multidimensional quality.

There are three sections of the story, each written in first person narrative but from the perspective of three different girls. The female protagonists are all completely different, from their backgrounds socially and economically to their outlooks on life, family, friendships, etc. In some ways you can see why they have made specific choices due to these factors; and why ultimately they all have different attitudes to sex. The three separate stories are wrapped together with the common thread of the 'bad boy'.

Judy Blume's Forever is incorporated into the narrative as a guide for those embarking on a physical relationship, adding depth to the storyline. I have not read this book but will certainly be hunting it out now.

The storyline shows how easy it is for teenage girls to be manipulated into a physical relationship. Showing how despicable some boys can be in their pursuit of conquests. I really came to despise the boy portrayed in this story. He prayed on the girls like a spider with a fly; charismatic and charming with a scary believability until he gets what he wants. A Jekyll and Hyde scenario if you will, with sex as the catalyst. Showing that a physical relationship is not something to be rushed into. You need to make sure you are mentally mature as well as physically in order to deal with the roller-coaster of emotions involved.

The book itself is visually powerful with the first and last pages showing the hand written notes added to the copy of Forever. Adding impact to the morale of the story. Which is RESPECT YOURSELF. Don't be coerced into doing something you aren't ready for. There are physical and mental repercussions from these decisions that need to be considered before jumping into something you might later regret.

A recommended read for the mid teen age group. A quick read, it really does make you think twice about rushing into things when you are not able to deal with the consequences.

Review: Two Way Street by Lauren Barnholdt

Synopsis: From GoodReads
There are two sides to every breakup. This is Jordan and Courtney, totally in love. Sure, they were an unlikely high school couple. But they clicked; it worked. They're even going to the same college, and driving cross-country together for orientation. Then Jordan dumps Courtney -- for a girl he met on the Internet. It's too late to change plans, so the road trip is on. Courtney's heartbroken, but figures she can tough it out for a few days. La la la -- this is Courtney pretending not to care. But in a strange twist, Jordan cares. A lot. Turns out, he's got a secret or two that he's not telling Courtney. And it has everything to do with why they broke up, why they can't get back together, and how, in spite of it all, this couple is destined for each other

Review:
Written in 1st person narrative with alternating perspectives of the boyfriend/girlfriend shortly after their breakup.

Jordan and Courtney are complete opposites and the phrase 'opposites attract' kept running through my head. Jordan stars out as your stereotypical jock, while Courtney is a bit geeky, neurotic and obsessive. I could totally relate to Courtney's imagination. At the start of their relationship I felt a bit sorry for Courtney as it looked as if she was just a consolation prize. Yet as their relationship developed you can see the positive effect they have on each other. In the end I absolutely adored the 'new' Jordan.

The book starts in the present day, then time warps back and forth to give a complete picture of their relationship and interactions with their friends and family. I have to be honest and tell you that Courtney's Dad gave me the creeps from the very beginning.

The full plot twist is not revealed until near the end, the tension builds into an explosion of knowledge from all angles.

The book itself is visually dynamic with arrows at the start of the chapter headings - giving it a double meaning. Literally when you think of a road trip and directional arrows but also metaphorically with the past and present narrative.

The narrative gives an intimate look at social networking and how it is sometimes used for nefarious reasons, I did find this a little unnerving.

The reference within the story to The Catcher in the Rye gave the plot an extra element, making me want to read  the book *makes promise to self*.

The changes in their personalities through their relationship was lovely to witness. Although circumstances draw them together for the road trip you can see that they really are perfect for each other. 'Along for the ride' takes on a whole new meaning with this story.

A lovely quick read (I read it in one sitting) which is easy to relate to.

Review: Fade by Lisa McMann

Synopsis: From Amazon
For Janie and Cabel, real life is getting tougher than the dreams. Disturbing things are happening at Fieldridge High, yet nobody's talking. When Janie taps into a classmate's violent nightmares, the case finally breaks open - but nothing goes as planned. Not even close. Janie's in way over her head, and Cabe's shocking behaviour has grave consequences for them both. And if that isn't bad enough, Janie has discovered Martha Stubin's journals, and what she learns through them chills her to the bone. For not only is her fate as a Dream Catcher sealed, but what's to come is so much darker than she'd ever feared...It seems that some nightmares never end...

Review:
I looked back at my review of Wake and  thought OMG what was I thinking, as Fade really drew me in, the overall impression I had was WOW. For me my enjoyment was increased due to there being far less crying. Although feelings run high and emotions sometimes get the better of the characters, the way in which they related to each other and the other characters within the book was much better. I realise that this is due to the fact both Janie and Cabel are working through their emotional issues. Growing emotional stronger thanks to their relationship.

The start of Fade finds Janie & Cabel a few months after the end of Wake. They are still unable to be open about their relationship while still in high school. Their relationship is very intense for their age. Their shared lack of parenting bonds them together. their traumatic childhood ties them deeply together. There are little recaps throughout Fade but not enough to make Wake superfluous.

I liked Janie far more than in Wake, she is learning to control her participation within the dreams as much as she is able. The depiction of the effects it has on her both mentally and physically gave depth to the storyline. She is becoming emotionally and physically stronger thanks to Cabel and The Captain. Janie is finally beginning to accept herself and take responsibility for own well being.

Both Cabel and Janie are mature beyond their years, Cabel especially is extremely well organised (I notice these things as I am on a get organised drive). They have had responsibility from a young age and it has shaped their personality and interactions.

I did feel Cabel was maybe over compensating for his lack of love as a child by being over-protective and possessive with Janie. Very intense emotions at play here. I am not really sure whether their relationship can be classed as 'healthy'.

I adored the communication between Cabel and Janie via email. Something I can completely relate to. Sometimes it is easier to open up when you are not dealing with that person face to face. Easier to express yourself without worry of interruption, rebuke or losing your train of thought. I also felt that the emails showed a lot more of the character development, their history and its repercussions.

The dream sequences are even more vivid and three dimensional. The high school dream imagery was rather amusing ;) The sub-plot with the revelations of the previous Dream Catcher, Miss Stubins, interwoven into the narrative gave depth to the plot. The information given was amazing and via which we are able to understand Janie better, even empathise with her.

My skin literally crawled with the depiction of a teacher abusing their position of authority. The party was so disturbing on so nay levels. For me, from the perspective of a parent *shudders* my heart pounded and my stomach clenched while reading it. I literally had palpitations. Cabel's reaction following the party was heart breaking.

This book certainly had the WOW factor. It is amusing in parts, romantic in others while weaving in tension and drama. I can definitely say this is one I am going to remember for a long time.

PS I really, really want to read Gone NOW!!!!!!!

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Review: The Chosen One by Carol Lynch Williams

Synopsis: From Amazon
Thirteen-year-old Kyra has grown up in her isolated community without ever questioning the fact that her father has three wives and she has twenty brothers and sisters; without ever questioning the strict rules imposed by 'the Prophet who leads them. But now Kyra has started keeping secrets. She reads books that are forbidden and sneaks away to meet Joshua, the boy she hopes to choose for herself, instead of having a husband chosen for her. Kyra knows that it's only a matter of time before her two secret loves are discovered. And when the Prophet decrees that she is to become the seventh wife of her sixty-year-old uncle, Kyra is forced to make a desperate choice. But saving herself means endangering everyone she's ever cared for. How far should she go for freedom?

Review:
Let me start by saying this book really took me out of my comfort zone. It really raises some powerful issues and alongside them some very powerful emotions. The writing style was impressive, it made me want to climb on top of my soapbox and rant about the whole injustice of it all. Now I will have to try to remain calm and collected in order to deliver a coherent review.

Written in first person narrative from Kyra's point of view, although only 13 she appears mature beyond her years. Probably due to the way in which she has been raised. I admired her strength of character and her bond to her family; especially the bond formed between the women of her family, the way in which they care for each other and protect each other. This aspect was lovely to visualise.

Not only is this a polygamist cult but their preference for paedophilia (marrying young pubescent girls off to old men) literally made my stomach clench. Obviously having 3 girls of my own made this even more sickening to me, I could imagine having to marry my nearly 10 year old off to someone as old as her grandfather, you can bet I would fight tooth and nail against that.

Women are treated like 2nd class citizens, there only to serve the men. They even class children as sinners (WTH). Any resistance is met with severe punishment. Nothing is beyond them in their quest for domination; blackmail, cruelty, coercion, even murder all carried out in the name of 'God'. I was shocked and disgusted at the punishment given to a 1 year old for crying. We are told that the commune was not always like this, there was a greater amount of freedom before the new 'Prophet' (self appointed by means of inheritance) . It has now become a maniacal dictatorship with everyone living in fear of upsetting the 'Prophet'.  I will even go as far as to say that the 'Prophet' uses a form of brainwashing in order to control his followers. Constantly repeating and reinforcing that any ideas bar his own are the work of the devil, the only way the followers can be kept safe and able to enter Heaven are by following his rules and staying within the compound.

Kyra has an enquiring mind, which really drew me to her. She can see beyond what they are told and questions the true value of the 'Prophet'. The whole idea of not being able to choose who they love, get any medical help or read anything beside the bible is archaic. As she reads hidden books obtained from a mobile library she confirms within her own mind that this is not how life should be. The very thought of not being able to read my own choice of books makes me shudder, I use reading as an escape and means of relaxing, I would not cope without books. I was horrified at the depiction of the book burning ordered by the 'Prophet'.

I adored the ending with the symbolism of the Russian Olive trees, the feeling of having come full Circle. Also the ideal of hope brings a sense of warmth to the ending making it the start of Kyra's life rather than just an ending.

This book made me think about all the things we take for granted in our society, how much freedom we have. The freedom to choose who we love, the freedom of thought, the freedom to get medical help, the freedom to read, I could go on and on. We take all these things for granted because we have them. Now imagine what life would be like if they were all taken away. This is how this book made me think, powerful and impressive.

Review: My Name is Memory by Ann Brashares

Synopsis: From Amazon
Daniel tells me that he’s always loved me. That I feel the same. That I always have.
Not just in this life, but in my last life, and all my lives before.
But I don’t remember him.
He says he is always searching for me. Always hoping that one day I will remember. But it is only he that carries the memory of our love.
I know that finding true love is never easy. Perhaps you have fought for it. Perhaps, like Daniel, you have endured the pain of it being unrequited.
But I hope your quest ends happily.

I hope you never have to face the heartbreak that inevitably awaits us.

This is our extraordinary, unforgettable story.

Review:
As well as having a gorgeous cover I was captivated by the synopsis. The whole idea of reincarnation and soul-mates really appeals to me. I knew I had to read this one and thanks to the awesome Keris Stainton for sending me a copy, my wish was granted.

Unbelievably complex writing technique brings 1st and 3rd person narration with interweaving chapters of the past and present settings give a incredibly detailed insight into the characters/interactions within the book.

Daniel is such a wonderful character to create in your imagination. The whole past lives aspect is fully developed with detailed chapters written in first person narrative, starting at his earliest memories of life up until he present day. You can fully understand is complexity, his reluctance to get close to people and his inability to interact on personal level. Yet, he never fails to search for his soul mate, tortured by the memories of his past life with her many incarnations. Daniels happiness is directly linked to his ability to find this missing piece of himself in every life.

I have heard the saying 'this one is an old soul' a lot especially after having my children. The term takes on a more significant meaning after reading this book.

Hypnosis and Regression therapy are touched upon within the plot. It made me wonder what it would be like to access memories from a previous life. Would I be left wishing to be back in that time if it was better than the life I had now or would I be weighed down with guilt for some past wrongdoing.  Looking at the plot from this angle helps build empathy for Daniel and even Lucy. Has anyone else said to themselves when things go wrong in their lives; "I must have done something really wrong in a previous life to have to pay for it now". The whole ideal of karma and reincarnation blending together so you have to atone for mistakes made in a previous lifetime is flawlessly incorporated into the narrative.

The 3rd person narration for the rest of the book is very subtle, the narrator does not have a strong individual voice, instead the narrative is focalised  from either Daniel or Lucy's perspective giving it the feel first person narration.

Lucy is the current incarnation of Daniel's soul-mate. He is drawn to her like a moth to a flame. He is not subtle about the information he reveals to her. Completely shocking and bewildering her, at first she is incredulous. Yet, as we get to know Lucy we see her strength of spirit and her capacity to see below the surface of people (for want of a better explanation I hope it makes sense). Circumstances lead her to believe not only Daniels past lives but also her own.

Elements of the supernatural are incorporated into the storyline adding an extra dimension to the plot.

I adored this book - right up until the ending - when I could have quite cheerfully pitched the book across the room. I am hoping, praying and may even resort to begging for a sequel. I have too many unresolved issues outstanding with this one to leave it like that. Please someone tell me there is a sequel. Then if you know someone that can send it to me immediately.

I adored the characters and the theme, just about everything so *yes I will beg* please don't leave me hanging like this.

Review: Wasted by Nicola Morgan

Synopsis: From Amazon

Jack worships luck and decides his actions by the flip of a coin. No risk is too great if the coin demands it. Luck brings him Jess, a beautiful singer who will change his life. But Jack’s luck is running out, and soon the stakes are high. As chance and choice unravel, the risks of Jack’s game become terrifyingly clear. An evening of heady recklessness, and suddenly a life hangs in the balance, decided by the toss of a coin. In the end, it is the reader who must choose whether to spin that coin and determine: life or death.


Review:

My head is still reeling days after reading this book. I will attempt to be coherent : D

Written in 3rd person narrative. The narrator has a strong and powerful presence. Omniscient within the prose, it provides a clever way in which to reveal different aspects of the plot. At times this can be disjointed as the narrator steps into the story to explore alternate avenues for the plot. I am one of those readers that fully immerse themselves in the storyline, I read as if I am viewing a movie in my head. So for me to take a step back from the main storyline to look at alternative threads with the narrator took some getting used to. I have to say it is a very powerful tool used to its utmost effect within this book. The narrator actually became a character within my imagination.

The protagonists are extremely well developed and easy to relate to. Background details are revealed piece by piece, fitting together like a jigsaw puzzle to reveal the whole picture when the last piece is dropped into place.

Jess has always been in the background, putting other people before herself; especially her alcoholic mother, when it comes to taking control over her life and doing the one thing she loves above all else - music. Then fate/destiny brings Jack into her life, helping bring her out of herself. Showing Jess what the world could be like if she let fate take control of her decisions.

However, Jack is almost OCD in his use of tossing a coin to make decisions. Due to events in his childhood he believes he owes fate if something good happens to him. For every good thing that occurs in his life, he has to tempt fate with the toss of the coin. The more contented he is with his life, the further compelled he is to toss the coin for every single decision.

J always says if he could have a super-power it would be the ability of hindsight followed by time travel in order to alter some of the decisions we have made over the years. Obviously we are looking at the big decisions that we regret and wonder where we would be in our lives now if we had chosen a different path. Yet we do not consider all the little everyday decisions that we make subconsciously that may also alter the way in which our lives will be affected. Even down to which way we turn at the end of the street. It is these little decisions that can also alter the complete course of your life.  Jack's coin game is the most powerful example of how even these little decisions can have huge consequences.

A complex and compelling storyline weaving psychology, quantum physics, philosophy and reality into one. Thought provoking on so many levels. A topic of  much debate in our house. J has now gone off on a tangent about string theory and parallel universes. We are such a cool couple LOL.

Review: Sisters Red by Jackson Pearce

Synopsis: From Amazon
The story of Scarlett and Rosie March, two highly-skilled sisters who have been hunting Fenris (werewolves) – who prey on teen girls – since Scarlett lost her eye years ago while defending Rosie in an attack. Scarlett lives to destroy the Fenris, and she and Rosie lure them in with red cloaks (a colour the wolves can't resist), though Rosie hunts more out of debt to her sister than drive.
But things seem to be changing. The wolves are getting stronger and harder to fight, and there has been a rash of news reports about countless teenage girls being brutally murdered in the city. Scarlett and Rosie soon discover the truth: wolves are banding together in search of a Potential Fenris – a man tainted by the pack but not yet fully changed. Desperate to find the Potential to use him as bait for a massive werewolf extermination, the sisters move to the city with Silas, a young woodsman and long time family friend who is deadly with an axe. Meanwhile, Rosie finds herself drawn to Silas and the bond they share not only drives the sisters apart, but could destroy all they've worked for.
 
Review:
This book really brought home to me how subjective reading is. I have read a few other reviews and was eagerly awaiting this book. Imagine my surprise when there within the narrative is a tender and poignant depiction of Alzheimer's. This is some thing very personal to me as my mother passed away from this terrible disease 3 years ago. I think I would have loved this book anyway but this element took it to a completely different level for me. As no-one else had mentioned the Alzheimer's within the narrative I wasn't expecting it and certainly didnt expect to cry in a story about werewolves, lol. Proving that your own life experiences really do effect how you interpret stories. It made me wonder if Jackson Pearce had first hand knowledge of this affliction, her portrayal of it was so realistic.
 
OK now that I have had my little download back to the book.
 
The action was adrenaline pumping from the very first page. No more fluffy, do gooder, I would like to cuddle you type Wolves. The fenris are bad to the core, hideous beasts and they smell bad : D The description are so sensory within the narrative that you totally immerse yourself in their world.  
 
All of the characters are extremely well developed with multi-layers to their personalities. Revealed piece by piece through the action they were all very easy to relate to and their interactions realistic. The story showed how one specific incident can shape your personality and interactions. Also the bonds that tie people together were laid bare. Showing that no matter how close you are to another person, you have to be the person that you are and not what they want you to be. I hope that makes sense?????
 
The parallels between the original fairytale and Sisters Red were truly ingenious. I especially liked the part when Rosie takes a basket of cookies to Silas's house. The description and parallels conjured wonderful images of both stories at the same time. The description of Silas's house really reflected the elements of a fairytale : D
 
A truly phenomenal read. It has romance, action, adventure, family relationships/bonds and the paranormal. What more could you ask for. I really hope that there will be more books following Rosie and Scarlett's adventures. Count me in : D
 

Body Image & Self Perception Month at Once Upon a Bookcase

The wonderful Jo at Once Upon A Bookcase has the best ideas.

Here is a copy of her post describing the thoughts behind this educational month long event. Also a great idea to use in schools as part of  their PSE lessons ;)

In my opinion, at the ages they are, teens are very impressionable. They see these stick thin models air brushed to within an inch of their lives in most forms of media that dictates that "this is what you need to look like to be beautiful" or "perfect" or, in some cases, "normal". There are too many teens out there that have such low self-esteem and self-confidence, and the media - as well as bullies and peer pressure - don't help. The extremes teens go to be "normal", and the depths of depression they can go to is just terrible, and I think this is such an important issue to be discussed. Being a YA fan, I thought looking at novels that tackle these issues is a great way to discuss the topic and shed some light on it.

And so Body Image and Self-Perception Month was born; a month long feature hosted by Once Upon a Bookcase where bloggers will be reading novels to look at how young adult authors deal with such an important subject. We'll be looking at novels that cover self-esteem and self-confidence, eating disorders, obesity, physical disabilities and disfigurement, to name a few. The month will involve reviews of YA novels covering the topics, discussions on the topics, author interviews and guest posts.

And here is a list of the books they will be reviewing:

Eating Disorders:
Second Star to the Right by Deborah Hautzig
Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson
Purge by Sarah Darer Littman
Skinny by Ibi Kaslik
Skin by A.M Vrettos
Jane in Bloom by Deborah Lytton
Just Listen by Sarah Dessen
Nothing by Robin Friedman (with a male protag)
Food, Girls, and Other Things I Can't Have by Allen Zadoff (with a male protag)
Shrink to Fit by Dona Sarkar

Obesity/Over Weight:
Artichoke's Heart by Suzanne Supplee
Huge by Sasha Paley
Jumping to Confusions by Liz Rettig
Last Chance by Sarah Dessen
The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things by Carolyn Mackler
Fat Kid Rules the World by K L Going (with a male protag)
Secrets of Truth and Beauty by Megan Frazer
Fat Cat by Robin Brande

Disability:
Shark Girl by Kelly Bingham
Accidents of Nature by Harriet McBryde Johnson
Deenie by Judy Blume
Leaving Paradise by Simone Elkeles
Izzy Willy Nilly by Cynthia Voigt
Everything Beautiful by Simmone Howell
Crazy Beautiful by Lauren Baratz-Logsted

Disfigurement:
North of Beautiful by Justina Chen Headley
Out of the Fire by Deborah Froese
Beastly by Alex Flinn (with a male protag)

Body/Feature Issues:
Fairest of Them All by Jan Blazanin
My Big Nose and Other Natural Disasters by Sydney Salter
Uglies/Pretties/Specials/Extras by Scott Westerfeld
Pretty Face by Mary Hogan
Blood Ties by Sophie McKenzie
King of the Screwups by K L Going (with a male protag)

I think this idea is awesome : D I have added the books to my wishlist and will be talking to schools about incorporating them into their PSE lessons. Thanks Jo